As violently damaged as this house was, I was surprised that I was distracted, still thinking about the last house I had been in.
The last house was a split foyer home with 3 bedrooms and a full bath on the upper floor, and two bedrooms and a full bath on the lower floor. The house was well worn, showing some signs of postponed maintenance... but it was clean, and had been well cared for. The windows on the front lower level had been boarded up after the foreclosure to help secure the property, so as I entered the darkened lower floor, I turned on my flashlight. As I turned the corner at the bottom of the stairs, my flashlight illuminated a paneled wall which had been painted years ago with a glossy white oil paint. That wall had been used as a canvas for graffiti, written in a bold red marker from ceiling to floor. The erie surprise of finding this painted wall in the darkened hallway illuminated only by my flashlight was disturbing... I no longer felt alone in the house.
I am in the business of helping investors buy foreclosed properties. This day I became acutely aware of the intense upset the the families must endure in the process of losing their homes. Each home must have it's story. I got to see into this one.
This is what was written on the wall...
My Painted Wall
May the Apache tear protect
me in this time of Remembrance.
Here is the end of the
whole mess, and I can
barely think of anything to
say. From this house of
Love, and Hate, and Yelling,
and hugs, and second chances
I will take away many things.
My Mothers gun, her knowledge,
her problems, her skills
her youth, her anger and
many other things, good
and bad, and in the end I
go with her love
and she with mine.
My Fathers Black Belt,
and with it the violence
he instilled in my life,
my brother's/sister's kukci
It is as strange and
unique as he, and with it,
lesson learned, may he find it.
My Grand Father's knife
though I did not know
him, it is still as sharp
as I'm sure he kept it,
and I will keep it that
way. May he live on through
it. I suppose I will also
take enough nostalgia to
kill a small village.
These are my
Words. Strip them,
Paint over them
This will always be...
My Painted Wall
(unreadable signature)
9/21/2008
good bye Mom!